You have to understand I’ve always been scared.
I wasn’t scared to love. No, that’s easy.
I was scared of love; of what it would do to me.
I’d seen too many movies and read too many books and I understood the concept.
Being in love was amazing, it made you ecstatic, put you on an all time high.
But I also understand the concept of life, that every good thing must come to an end.
So, I became scared.
I was scared of love, of what would happen to me whenever I got off that high that came along with it.
I was scared of being broken, terrified of heart break.
So I decided not to love; it was the only way to ensure my protection.
I put on locks and bolted the doors and cut off all roads leading to my heart.
My heart became an impenetrable fortress.
I was glad, my heart was secure.
But I was insecure.
To be continued…